I think October really did me in. I thought posting everyday about our lives without Griffin would be easy because I could post what I was doing, thinking, feeling daily since it was our total reality. But it was too private. And too much focus on the loss without perspective of the blessing he provided to our lives, and to the good that remained.
But here, 8 months out, I'm still that girl. Heartbroken over losing a son and struggling with knowing the next steps. And trying, daily, to remember hope and joy.
We truly have a lot to be joyful over these days too. Our marriage is great, our daughter is flourishing, and spring finally seems to be arriving. I noticed that the tulips and daffodils in Griffin's garden are pushing up through the soil now, trying to live even though winter won't seem to let go.
And so are we. Pushing onward even though our winter is not over. Welcoming spring in the midst of it all.
Arriving September 2013!